Military Wives...

I feel like people truly do not understand what we go through. When our husbands are here they work long hours. We cook, we clean, we pay the bills... we keep everything together while they work.

When they are gone we do all the same, ALONE! I find myself often needing to ask him questions about finances but he is not always able to talk and answer right away, so i have to make the decision that i think is best.... i hate doing these things without his input. I find myself staring at the clock anxiously waiting to see if he will get on skype. Then i find myself after skyping him, feeling down and lonely and wishing he was here to lay in bed with me watch a movie... cook dinner with me... before i know it, its 3 am and i havent gone to bed yet. Everything is so much easier when they are here! We move by ourselves && pray that someone will step in and help us, we buy cars by ourselves && pray that when they are back they dont hate it. I cant even count how many times ive had to take pictures and decorations down, pack them, move and re hang everything. It really gets to me that i dont always have him here to give his opinion on what to buy, where to put things, where to live, what kind of car to buy.... but thats his job right? i am very thankful for his job, if he didnt do what he does we wouldnt have all the nice things that we do. I just wish that my friends who are NOT with someone in the military could open their eyes and see just what all of our men do. Not exactly an easy job. I cant stand when someone posts about booohooo my boyfriend is gone for the weekend! Kick rocks, and kick them hard my friend! look at what we go through... i feel like i have it bad, but im in our own home, our own car, i eat what i want... my husband if he drives... hes driving a military vehicle... he doesnt ever get to decide what he wants to eat, he showers in tiny showers, sleeps in a small bed and has no privacy. They are told what to wear and when to wear it && how to wear it.... but they know WHY they wear it!! I guess id say my biggest fear is my husband coming home and not liking where i chose to live, the car i chose to buy and the things ive decided to put up on the walls. Im sure when he is back the last thing he will care about is all of these things, i know he just wants to see my face, in person!

So think of this.... next time you want to complain about how bad YOU have it.... remember how bad all of them have it! They just want to be home in their own surroundings, eat their own food, drive their own car, sleep in their own bed, and be with their family.

<3 Kaitlin 

Cars....

Why must they be so expensive and confusing? So i waited around ALL day today to figure out if mitsubishi could fix my car today, of course not. Ended up getting a rental car and driving an hour and a half back home... so hopefully they can fix my car by the end of the week. That would be super! Unfortunately i highly doubt it.

So i was really excited today. Mitsubishi doesn't normally give free rentals, customers always have to pay for them. I explained nicely (always use the nice approach first) that my husband is currently inAfghanistan and who the heck is going to drive to Costa Mesa to come get me? hmmm NO ONE! SOOOO they ened up giving me a FREE rental because my husband is deployed! I honestly appreciate when people do special things for us wives when our husbands are deployed, sometimes it makes ALL the difference in our day.

Only got to Skype my husband for a little bit today, He is going to be really busy and i wont get to talk to him for a few days. Uhg i hate waiting but I always get excited when he is able to get on and I can see his face again! He definitely make all my stress and sadness disappear. I pray every day for his safety & his strength... I cant wait for him to come home =] I never feel complete when he is gone, i feel like i have a chunk missing out of my heart. I know hes always with me though.

Anyway.. that's all i've got for now.

<3 Kaitlin

Stressssed

Today... was a NOT so good day... to say the least. Today my high was talking to my husband, my low was everything else! Woke up later then i would have liked, missed my husbands first skype messages... then took a shower, went and test drove new cars and they tried to rip me off. Why is it that dealerships try to rip females off? Females are the best at doing finances, do they really think we are that stupid to walk out with a $850 car payment? I dont think so! Can you say stressed? So tonight I am probably going to take a nice warm bubble bath, watch a movie, eat some pop corn and relax. In the morning i get to take our current POS to be fixed! yay... NOT!

I feel like everything falls apart when my husband leaves. Roomate decided to screw us over, had to move. Car is being a POS have to get it fixed, find out i can't have kids without fertility treatments... would anything else like to go wrong? Here is your chance to do so... lets get it all over with! LOL

My husband really brightened my day today and made me feel so much better after all of the stress! Some how, he is so perfect at that. Where would i be without him? who knows. All i know is that i am so thankful to have him in my life, and i am so proud of him for how hard he woks. He melts my heart. <3

<3 Kaitlin

This life...

Ahhh the life as a corpsmans wife... Where do i even start? The late night/early morning skype calls, the sleepless lonely nights, wishing you had someone to cook for, lay in bed with or just simply watch tv with...

My husbands on a year long tour (or more) to Afghanistan. Is it easy? No! But did anyone ever say it would be? Negative. Although some time has gone by i still feel as if this madness has just started. Its hard, very hard but... I keep it positive. No one wakes me up in the morning, but when i get that call at 6 and sometimes 5 AM, the joy that it brings to my heart can not be expressed through words. Hearing his voice & seeing his face absolutely melts my heart! And let me tell you.. Us military wives dont miss a call, EVER. Those calls are what keep us going, he is the reason i wake up every day and i wouldn't trade that for anything.

Some might say "20 years old and married?" well.. You're damn right age is just a number. I actually got married at 18, sure thats young but who is to judge anyways? When you love someone that much, your age and the distance doesn't matter. I would wait 10 years for him if i had to. Hes such an amazing man & wonderful husband.

Withinour 18 months of marriage we have spent about 7 months of that together due to deployments. As much as it breaks my heart to watch him leave, i sure as hell cant wait for him to come home! Homecoming in 2012 will be one of the happiest days of my life. He is my absolute hero (if you cant tell). Until then ill continue to spoil him with goodies and care packages :)

Well thats about all ive got for now! :)

<3Kaitlin