I feel like people truly do not understand what we go through. When our husbands are here they work long hours. We cook, we clean, we pay the bills... we keep everything together while they work.
When they are gone we do all the same, ALONE! I find myself often needing to ask him questions about finances but he is not always able to talk and answer right away, so i have to make the decision that i think is best.... i hate doing these things without his input. I find myself staring at the clock anxiously waiting to see if he will get on skype. Then i find myself after skyping him, feeling down and lonely and wishing he was here to lay in bed with me watch a movie... cook dinner with me... before i know it, its 3 am and i havent gone to bed yet. Everything is so much easier when they are here! We move by ourselves && pray that someone will step in and help us, we buy cars by ourselves && pray that when they are back they dont hate it. I cant even count how many times ive had to take pictures and decorations down, pack them, move and re hang everything. It really gets to me that i dont always have him here to give his opinion on what to buy, where to put things, where to live, what kind of car to buy.... but thats his job right? i am very thankful for his job, if he didnt do what he does we wouldnt have all the nice things that we do. I just wish that my friends who are NOT with someone in the military could open their eyes and see just what all of our men do. Not exactly an easy job. I cant stand when someone posts about booohooo my boyfriend is gone for the weekend! Kick rocks, and kick them hard my friend! look at what we go through... i feel like i have it bad, but im in our own home, our own car, i eat what i want... my husband if he drives... hes driving a military vehicle... he doesnt ever get to decide what he wants to eat, he showers in tiny showers, sleeps in a small bed and has no privacy. They are told what to wear and when to wear it && how to wear it.... but they know WHY they wear it!! I guess id say my biggest fear is my husband coming home and not liking where i chose to live, the car i chose to buy and the things ive decided to put up on the walls. Im sure when he is back the last thing he will care about is all of these things, i know he just wants to see my face, in person!
So think of this.... next time you want to complain about how bad YOU have it.... remember how bad all of them have it! They just want to be home in their own surroundings, eat their own food, drive their own car, sleep in their own bed, and be with their family.
<3 Kaitlin
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